The Vintage Key: Kama Darr Artist. : You can't be a perfectionist and an artist at the same time...I didn't know.

March 26, 2009

You can't be a perfectionist and an artist at the same time...I didn't know.

I really didn't get this until recently. I have been so unmotivated lately when it comes to creativity. My mind has been going in circles trying to figure out what it is I want to do this year for festival season. Do I want to continue with the typewriter keys, buttons,etc.? Or do I want to spread my wings and try something new. I still don't know. My problem is I want to do a little of everything (including painting every room in my house a different color) and I don't want to be labeled as the "one" who makes this or that. So instead of creating, I have been thinking about not creating and enjoying things I normally HATE; bbookkeeping, balancing the checkbook or paper work. Anything, that when completed is either right or wrong. But after much confusion about why I was enjoying this so much, and much sadness that I was enjoying this so much, it was brought to my attention that you can't create and be a perfectionist at the same time. I was using all this stuff I don't like as an excuse for not having a bit of creativity in me at the time. To some, this might be a very easy concept to grasp. But I had no previous knowledge of this reasoning. So as soon as I experienced this moment of clarity I was able to be free and not paranoid about what was happening. And before I knew it, I was back to work and doing some of the same things and a lot of different stuff and not worrying a whole lot about what would happen. I have to tell you I was so relieved to be over that feeling. Below are some things I have recently enjoyed working on.